I'm so effing c-c-c-c-c-old!!!

Why can't it be 80 degrees year round...80 degrees with snow! That would be perfect in my book! LOL. But at least this cold snap will finally cause the trees to start changing colors. They say if they dont change soon and we get a hard freeze that the leaves wont fall off and that will creat a major disaster once one of our innevitable ice storms hit. They are saying it could easily be worse than the ice storm in (99?) I relly don't remember the year, just the sounds of the snapping branches and the exploding trasformers...
Speaking of Transformers, we have to watch that for the bedtime movie tonight...I can't wait...*sarcasm*
Ok, peace out.

I miss him...

I just stumbled upon a picture on my brothers website of my grandpa. I all of a sudden was struck with such a feeling of sadness. Tears started streaming. I miss him so much. I miss his big smile, his big tummy, and his pinches on the cheek. I want so much for him to be in my wedding pictures, to hold my daughter and to share in the excitement of this new baby. He was such a solid person. He was always proud of us even when things happened in our lives that were less than proud moments. I love the pictues of him letting us crawl all over him. The video of the family Christmas vacation at the Lake when he dressed up as Santa Clause and surprised all of us kids. I remember after their house burned down and we went over to their town home for my birthday and he wheeled out my brand new scooter. I was so excited! I remember the not so fond memories too...thanks to my grandmother. She was relentless in her insults to us and especially me. I wasn't quite good enough in her eyes. But I could always look to my grandpa and feel love again. My last memories of him are bittersweet. Lying in the hospital bed he was so positive at the beginning. "I'm not going anywhere..." , after he met Charlie for the first and last time he told him he better take care of me... Then when the inevitable hopelessness of his illness took hold of him, I saw the fear in his eyes. I saw my grandpa cry. I had to leave. The call came to me that I needed to get to the hospital right away if I want to say my final goodbyes...I didn't make it. I couldn't go in the room once he was gone. I couldn't see my grandpa without the life in his eyes. Even as hard as the last few days were, he was still there. The memorial service was hard. So many people were there. So many people with such awesome things to say about such an awesome man. I miss him more than I ever thought I could miss someone. I believe that heaven is what you want it to be., If there is a heaven...he is there...navigating his boat in the never ending waters of his heaven. I miss you Grandpa Rich!

delima solved???

I hope...

We interviewed a new daycare lady today. Makenna really liked her and I have a really good feeling about leaving Mak there. There is lots for her to do and Kim, the lady, seems very 'good'. She has 20+ yrs experience and there will only be 3 kids at a time, so there will be plenty of one-on-one time. She prepares healthy meals for the kiddos and takes them on walks and all sorts of fun stuff. i really hope this works out as well as it looks like it will. If things go well, we will just keep her there instead of transfering her to Kindercare in Dec. *Keep your fingers crossed* She will start tomorrow so I wont have to miss any work.

I'm a good girl!

This morning on the way to work, after cutting up potatoes, and filling my crock pot with a roast, potatoes and water and some spices, I decided to do something I've never done before. I picked up the phone and called Charlie's dad and invited him and Debbie over for dinner. Not because Charlie wanted me to (he didn't even know) not because I 'had' to, but because I actually missed hanging out with them. All day long I was worried about the crock pot dinner burning up b/c I'm paranoid about that kind of thing. When I finally got home, the house smelled fabulous! The meat was perfectly tender and dinner turned out great, allbeit a bit bland (I have to work on my seasonings). Chuck and Debbie came over and we had a wonderful evening! Chuck's car burned up last weekend! LOL!!! I was cracking up while he was telling us the story! Debbie showed me the blanket she is working on for the new baby, its cute, she just wants to find out what the baby is so she can finish it in pink or blue. They bought Mak the cutest little rain coat 9which would have come in handy today) and a cute winter coat! I am so glad that I've made the decision to 'rekindle' so to speak our relationship. Its nice to get to know him/them again.

lots of stuff

I got a pedicure tonight with Emily. It was her first. I LOVE pedicures! I wish I could have one every week! I think I have cute feet...Charlie disagrees, but what does he know really?

Makenna was a holy terror on Sunday. She was a 'bad' kid! 3 trips to time out! She has developed a fondness for beating the dog. I've never felt sorry for this dog until my 18 month old began abusing him! LOL She escaped out the back door 3 times (hence the 3 time out trips) obbviously time out is very effective *sarcasm* She has learned the word "NO" and uses it quite freely now.

I'm really starting to get super excited for this baby. I think I am feeling flutters already. Either that or I have the same gas feeling everytime I lay down very still. I can't wait for the big kicks! The time is flying by with this pregnancy! Its going a lot quicker than it did the first time...well it seems to be anyway. I'll be 13 weeks on wednesday!

*earmuffs*
Charlie and I had 'boom-boom' last night for the first time in hmmm...lets see, about 12 weeks. I don't know why but I was almost as scared to 'do it' again as I was the first time I 'did it'. It was the strangest thing. But all in all it was good, and I'm over whatever hang up I had going on...aside from the pelvic rest I was ordered on for 6 of those 12 weeks.

All better...

So essentially he refused to help me at all yesterday clean the house. I started at 8am and finally quit around noon, all the while he was making excuses fo things he had to do. BS. But anyway, we're better now. I was just really freaking ticked off at him. He's such a penis sometimes...

I am so freaking pissed off

at my husband. I wont go into detail, but days like this really make me wonder if its all worth it.

A case of the Mondays...

I just don't want to go to work today. I am exhausted. I had a headache from the time I came home from work last week to the time I went to bed last night that even Tylenol Max didn't touch. I haven't been sleeping well at all. I just feel so blah right now. Its pouring rain outside. I have to work till 6 and then manage to get Mak picked up and over to 119th & Quivira by 6:15 for my pedicure that I've already had to re-schedule 4 times. My uterus is expanding and its actually painful...I dont remember feeling 'growing' pains with Mak, but this time I deffinietly do. Oh and gas too...just in case everyone wanted to know that. Ok, so that is my monday so far...have a great freaking day....

Mak's 18 month pics!

Ok, seriously...can she get any cuter???


















This was the last shot and she tackled the bear instead of kissing him...lol