Drum roll please....

Its a ....


BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy thoughts...

My US is tomorrow! Nope its not the 4th yet, BUT, thanks to a scheduling conflict at work, I had to call and reschedule...the first available appointment was....TOMORROW!!! I'm so relieved! I know it would have only been 4 more days, but thats 4 less days I have to think depressing thoughts. And the best part...since I wrote my last blog, my baby has been making sure I know its there. I'm feeling lots more little flutters. Kind of like s/he is reassuring me that everything is going to be ok mom! I'm so excited to see the baby. The last time we saw the bean it looked like a gummy bear. Now it will look like a real baby! With arms and legs and a nose and all the other baby parts! Speaking of 'parts' lets all say a little prayer that this little one cooperates and shows us the goods so we know if this will be a Jackson or a Morgan!

I am deffinitely getting excited. Maybe all that I've been feeling lately is just the hormones talking...??? I hope.

depressing thoughts.

I have been trying to ignore this 'feeling' I have had since I found out I was preggo. I remember when I was pregnant with Mak, I got the same feeling, but i remember it going it away pretty quickly, as I grew more excited. But I can't shake it this time around. Its like I'm afraid to let myself get attached to this pregnancy. Like I'm trying to keep mysef from being let down or upset when/if we find out something is wrong. I hate it. I feel like the more I feel this way, the likelier that something will go wrong, thus it would be my fault if something did happen. Its a horrible feeling. I hate it. But I can't stop it. I need to know everything is ok. I have my sonogram next tuesday, so hopefully that will put some ease to these thoughts/feelings. I know every pregnancy is different, but this one has been 150% more nerve-racking than my first pregnancy ever was. I really hope this U/S goes well on Tuesday, I think that will reassure me that everything is ok. I don't even care if we are able to find out what we are having, as long as it proves that my 'feelngs' are wrong.

What the hell!

Well, Mak is back ot not sleeeping...or rather, she sleeps but then decides that 3am-4am is her new get up for the day time. I'm NOT ok with this!!!!!

And what the hell is with it being 70 degrees yesterday and 30 flippin' degrees today? How are people supposed to stay healthy in temp ranges like this?????

Ok, i'm going to bed...3 am will be here before I know it...

Oh and Happy Thanksgiving!

She did it!...and yet another preggo vent

She slept through the night last night...AND...Charlie got up with her at 5am this morning and let me sleep in until 8:30!!!!! It was so refreshing. I felt more rested than I've felt all week, he also packs the croation love log of passion! He is quit the man! He rocks that ass til the break of dawn all night long!


****Ok, reclaiming MY blog from being hi-jacked by my idiot husband....****

So I was going to be nice and tell about how sweet it was of him to step up and help me out like that, but since he decided to take advantage of me getting the baby ready for bed, I wont!


I'll talk about myself! So I'm really getting tired of being pregnant. I never felt this with Makenna. I LOVED being preggo with Mak. No complaints or complications with her. But his kid is killing me! My hips hurt SO bad today. If I ist down I literally have to have Charles help me back up. I made the mistake of laying down on the floor and I got stuck! I could NOT get up by myself. I remember feeling this at the END of my pregnancy with Mak, but never this early. It sucks! I'm also having a lot of BH contractions. I'm going to talk to the midwife at the next appt, but things just don't feel right. I might call this week. But we still hear the baby's heartbeat everynight and I can feel it kicking me pretty regularly, so I'm sure things are fine. I'm just getting paranoid with all these 'weird' symptoms. Oh and 2 more of my close friends are preggo now too! That puts the preggo friend/family count at 5 of us! Babies everywhere!

Make it stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so tired. I am going insame over this teething thing with Makenna. She is up if not every hour of the night, at least every other hour. And then she wakes up between 5am-6am and there is not really any point in trying ot get her back down. This morning, after me being up with her most of the night, I asked Charlie at 5:30 to get up with her. His alarm had been going off since 5am, so I didn't think this would be such a big deal. But no, he said ok, then rolled back over and 20 seconds later he was snoring again. So I got up and got her. I'm just so exhausted. I don't think I've felt this tired ever. Lastnight in the middle of the night around 1:30 I actually yelled at Makenna. I feel horrible about it. Its not her fault that she isn't feeling well. But I just snapped because she would fall asleep with me rocking her, but as soon as I would lay her down and try to leave she would start screaming again. I just feel like I'm wearing too thin. I have no patience for anything right now. On top of that I really hate our bed and I'm havnig trouble sleeping anyway, when I do get a chance for an hour or two. Its so uncomfortable and I wake up with a headache 9 out of 10 mornings b/c I'm sleeping awkward on it. I wish I could say well at least its friday, but it doesn't matter. Its not like I get any sleep on the weekends either. This is over 2 weeks that Makenna has been like this. I just wish her teeth would hurry up and pop through. 1 out of the 4 has finally popped through, but the others are being stubburn. I don't know how much more I can take of this no sleep.

17 weeks...

Bastard children, New car, New worries, Shots, Garth Brooks and anything else I can think of....hang in there its gonna be a long one!

Ok, Loni...Its finally tomorrow...LOL

Bastard Children...
Charles works with this guy named Scott. Scott is an ok person at best. I'm not 100% fond of him, but I can tollerate him. What I can not tollerate is his children. I banned the older boy from our house after he threw a fit b/c I told him to put Makenna's bubble machine away, and he threw the bottle of bubbles all of the floor. Hes 8 btw... The younger boy, was still allowed at our house...let me emphasize the WAS. They all came over for a smoke out and the little bastard called my beautiful angelic daughter a BITCH! And the really sad part about it is at just 3 years old, he knows how to use the word in the correct context. I don't blame the kids, though. They have shitty parents...


New Car...
A Saturn Ion to be exact. We went to 'look' at cars and were the victims of a sales man who was really good at his job. **insert rolling eyes emoticon** We needed the car. It was inevitable that we would get one, but the timing was not so good. Our first payment is due two weeks before X-Mas. Merry F-ing christmas! Oh well, I must say I love the 4 door! The cavalier was a real pain in the ass...especially as my belly seems to be expanding a trillion times faster this time around.

New worries...
I have high blood pressure and I guess I've had it the whole pregnancy. Never had it before until this pregnancy. If it is high again next time I will be monitored for pre-eclampsia and anything else that high Bp might bring on. I'm trying to be good though. I've cut back my pop intake and am watching what I'm eating and keeping my salt intake down. Its still kinda scary though...And my Dr's #1 recomendation..."don't stress about ANYTHING"...um, yeah, that'll happen.

Shots.
Makenna had her 18 month check up. I made my mom go along since the last round of shots went pathetically bad (on my part). This time however, Makenna did really well! She was in good spirits and was playing in the room the whole time and cooperating with the Dr. Even after the shots and the initial few minutes of crying, she was good to go! All she wanted to do was pet the large stuffed giraffe in the hallway! Phew! She was 34.5 inches tall and weighed 26.2 lbs. She is currently cutting 4 more teeth and I pray that ends VERY quickly! She is still so amazing! Her new favorite word is bus. We see about 5-6 on the way to daycare in the morning and she tells each and every one of them "hi bus!" God I love her!!!

Garth Brooks.
We ended up with Executive Suite box tickets to the Garth Brooks concert on Sunday night. Let me tell you that was one hell of a show! If I would have known how much I would have enjoyed myself I would have shelled out the big bucks to purchase a ticket! Thank God for connections in the event tickets business!!! We got the best seats in the house for the grand total of FREE!!! And you can blame Charles for no pictures...He said they would take away my bright shiny new camera if I tried to take it in...Then they announce that "Garth welcomes you to take as many photos as you would like...." I turned to Charles and punched him in the arm! Anyway, it was an awesome show and I can say I genuinely enjoyed myself 250%!!!!

Oh! I'm gonna be an aunt again!!!!!!! Brian and Terri found out on Halloween of all days that they are expecting #2!!!! The new baby will be about 3 months younger than our new one! I can't wait! Oh and I find out on December 4th what we are having!!!! Pray for a non-shy baby!!!

Halloween was fun! makenna dressed as a pumpkin and Sammy was a soldier! Emily and Chris dressed up as The big Pimp Wolf and Lil'Red Riding Hoe...LOL. It was awesome! I thought Mak would be scared of Chris's mask, but she loved it! She thought he was a dog and kept saying "woof, woof". Its was so damn cute! I'll post a pic update in a day or two.

Ok, I think I'm done for now. Thats been my life in a nut shell...for now!

Sorry Loni!

I'll make another post tomorrow. I didn't realize I haven't posted in awhile...I keep thinking of posts and then I never make them! LOL I'm too tired to tonight though. I have a lot to blog about...Like the little shit that just called my daughter a bitch...oh yeah, that will be a fun one!